:: Friday, September 09, 2005 ::

This blog has taken many turns, in many ways. =)

It started off as a sub blog for stuff that i won't write in the main blog cause it's too weird.

Then I left it alone for a while, as I 'un-weirded' myself =P

I returned, musing about relationships, and what i truly wanted in a guy.

I found him for a while, and this blog became a space where i can speak my mind to him, cause there are stuff we don't say face to face.

Then now?

I don't know, but maybe it'll revert back to what I used it for before, to muse about more important stuff.

I have a date (L) tomorrow that try as I might, I just can't get myself excited about it. It's strange, he's asked me out 3 times. And all three times, I couldn't get myself to feel excited about meeting him. It's very strange. I remember the night before I was supposed to meet Dan, I felt really nervous, fretting about things to say. what to wear. Now I have no idea what to wear tomorrow, nor do I really care much. I don't know if it's because I've changed, or it's just that - I have no interest. But I've promised to move on, and I will, and I will try my best, even when i have no inclination to.

I suppose some things like these - they are unfathomable. Maybe it's just the lack of chemistry. Oh Chemistry. The oh so elusive quality, you cannot pin down what exactly it is, but when you feel it, everything just falls into place. He puts his arms around you and it just feels - yes, that's what it's supposed to feel like. I kind of believe in the idea of chemistry, I guess.
:: The Girl 4:55 AM [+] ::
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