:: Wednesday, May 11, 2005 ::

I never did fully realise how much you mean to me until yesterday - sitting on the curb outside O Bar, trying hard not to cry.
:: The Girl 8:59 PM [+] ::
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:: Monday, May 09, 2005 ::

I'm ... trying to be as normal as I can and try to understand stuff without being overwhelmed. But I realised I can't... Either I make myself think too much and then I'll cry. Or I'll just become childish, spiteful and angry... which I really hate to be.

I'm trying to be non clingy... give you space, cause I read somewhere that Pisceans tend to be too smothering... so try to ease up a little. But I don't know how much space is enough.

Alright. I'm trying not to talk too much also... cause I tend to babble and talk nonsense if I go on... so...

I'm not angry la.
:: The Girl 12:57 AM [+] ::
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:: Sunday, May 08, 2005 ::

I hate it when this happens.

I hate it when I get angry.

I hate it when I do self destructive things.

I hate it when I know it's wrong.

I hate it when I don't want to do it, but I do it still, cause I want to be spiteful.

I hate to feel guilty.

God, I really hate to feel guilty.

It's just talking. But god I feel so bad.

I don't want to. I don't want to. I don't want to.
:: The Girl 6:37 AM [+] ::
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