:: Saturday, March 29, 2003 ::

I'm the fickle-est (Is there such a word? Whatever.) person in the world. I can't help it. I go head over heels whenever I see some guy new. God, I wish I could just stick to one guy.
:: The Girl 5:41 AM [+] ::
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:: Friday, March 28, 2003 ::

I just read something, and I don’t know whether to laugh at this person’s absurdity or feel irate that my words are so twisted and stretched it’ll pop if Truth were a rubber band.

I am talking about shuhui.

At first I thought to let it go. I have better things to do. Like maybe painting my nails. But I realized that if I do not address it, it would just sit there and grow. I sat back the last time it occurred; and look what happened. I let her insinuate that I was a liar and what I said was ‘crap’. I let her go on saying how she was the one who always gave in, while all the time still harping on the same subject. I’ll be damned if I don’t do anything about it now.

Firstly, the very ridiculous and absurd thing is that I wasn’t even trying to change anyone’s opinions. Heck, I didn’t even read her entry until I saw it with that weird poem which I initially thought didn’t make any sense until I scrolled down and saw Jill’s name. All that talk was probably a veiled message about how I should not change her viewpoint. For gosh sakes, I didn’t even know I was having that effect on her. I wrote that entry after talking to my other friends about the war and listening to their opinions. What I was writing about were what I thought of their opinions. I wasn’t trying to change theirs’, I’m just presenting my thoughts on their opinions. I read my entry again, and I don’t see in anyway I was trying to change a person’s viewpoint, more so hers. (Especially the fact that I didn’t even base my entry on whatever she said)

I probably won’t base my argument on something that isn’t very substantial and does not relate much to the war. For the record, I actually know someone called Jill and it certainly didn’t refer to shuhui. It was based on Jill’s opinion that I wrote my entry. I basically stopped listening to shuhui when she said that she didn’t listen to the ‘crap’ GWB talked about. How do you ‘see two sides of the story’ when you don’t even listen to one side of the story? It makes me laugh. It’s such a contradiction.

When you come right down to it, to her, her own entries are ‘her views’. My entries are me trying to change ‘her views’. I can never write anything without my motives being scrutinized. I won’t even remind her that I wrote my entry before I even read hers. Wtf. I don’t even care what she talks about, especially since her knowledge of the war does not render her able to give up a debate on the war.

I still can’t believe that she actually thought my entry was something against her views, when all I was trying to do is to rationalize the need for war. I don’t care for what she thinks. I don’t care for trying to change anyone’s views because I believe you cannot. I wrote my entry even before I read her post, and I think it’s absurd she should think she is Jill. Because, firstly, I would just write her name down. And secondly, Jill gives food for thought.

I am not going to edit anything in this entry. I’m pissed and I don’t give a damn on how harsh I sound. I had enough.

:: The Girl 9:30 PM [+] ::
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